Feeling Lost

[Eve7]

@outlander 

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[outlander]

@Eve7

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander 

Yes - I know - planning our days - let alone our lives - around chronic pain is really tough - and no one knows until they have touched the rough edges of it - and I have so I know only too well,

And then there is life - and it doesn't matter - however hard we try life gets in the way too - 

I am sure you will overcome - it won't be easy though - it never is - I live a solitary life that can be peaceful at times - but then - there is always something going on that no one could factor in.

Sometimes I wonder how I managed life's interesting intrusions when I was working full time - had a part time job - and went to university part time - and ran a household. I did. I remember it was interesting - but sure there were big and small hiccups.

All the best Outlander - I admire your courage

Owlunar

[outlander]

thank you @Owlunar 

i may have damaged the nerves in my hand. the physio thinks i have anyway and the signs are definently there.

i also have a meeting at work tomorrow with my boss and another person because a client has made a serious compliant against me (which is actually quite childish) but now have to go through the steps of that complaint until the client is satisfied.

[outlander]

is anyone around to talk to

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander 

That's a lot - having nerve-damage in your hand - I am so sorry about that. Is that where you have the CRPS? What rotten luck - 

I hope meeting you had today was okay - sometimes things just gang up on us - I have had a lot of small issues over the last months - maintenance around my unit - which is Government Housing - so things that weren't done during the lockdowns had to be fixed - and then - the back gate was blown off its hinges in a bad storm.

Still this isn't stroppy people getting to your supervisor about a childish issue - we can all live without that - all the best with that - 

It's not easy being green - I hear you

Owlunar

[outlander]

no i have crps through my foot, leg, hip, face and digestive system @Owlunar

ive taken a couple of days off work. im to tired atm and mentally im not well so the last place i want to be is at work looking after many clients who only want to make complaints

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander 

That's a lot of your body to experience pain - that has to be hard to manage.

Taking time off work when you are not in a good headspace is a good idea - as you say - a lot of people just want to make complaints

I have known you for years now and you have always been proactive in doing your best to improve your circumstances - and it seems - often blocked in your efforts by demands made on you by other people.

So - I get it - when people are just there to complain and not do anything useful for their own betterment then you need some space to recharge. I do that - it's necessary.

I have learned that when people suffer childhood trauma then they are more likely to suffer chronic health issues. And it can be generational. My grandfather went to The Great War - the First World War - when he was only 16 and it seems to me that there are many of his descendants troubled with various chronic disorders: pain, CFS, Fibromyalgia, allergies - 

Yet - I ask myself - who can get through childhood without some kind of trauma? Life can be really tough sometimes - 

It's not easy - this I know - so take all the time you need to aid your mental and physical health - it's necessary.

Best thoughts

Owlunar