The internal conflict is so real @Jynx. The fighting, the confusion, the pressure all in my head is really getting to me. It’s like there is only one way to stop it all. It’s just all going around and around. There’s just so much of it. It’s racing and I can’t calm it with anything I try. I need sleep but I also need the sleep to get some rest from it all. I am a real mess and it can’t be fixed, I have to ride it out and hope it all settles down. Just don’t k ow how long that will take.
I don’t want to disappoint her. If anything happens between now and our next appointment I think she will call ES on me and not give me a choice.
It was a cute surprise when I jumped on Facebook Wednesday morning when I got home! Jett was the most well behaved in getting the photos done much to everyone’s shock!
@Captain24 it's a rough ride to be on hun, but there's always a path forward. The lack of sleep will make it harder to even imagine any other options, because our ability to think outside the box goes down when our distress goes up.
I believe in you hun, you can do this. Sleep will find you eventually, even if it's not tonight. There's no pressure from me for you to sleep, cos I know your body will make it happen eventually. Deep breaths, ok? You got this, and we got you 💜
Hehe such good doggos!! Worth printing and framing I reckon! Or you could even turn em into cute christmas ornaments... I'm sure there's some internet company that does that lol.
Anyway, oodles of toodles, and I will catch you tomorrow 😊
