Stuck

[Fallen_Broken_]

Hi, I am stuck in a dark pit of depression and I can't see a way to climb out of it. I can't or won't do anything to help myself. I just don't care enough to bother. It's gotten worse over the last month or so, to the point where I might get out of bed twice a week. I'm pathetic. 

I'm 59, I can barely walk because of knee and back pain and obesity. I should be grateful for being able to walk at all, some can't. I know there are people out there with way worse troubles than myself....my brain doesn't see it that way. My brain only has focus for the negative and how useless I have become. I use to be the one to say to others, " all you need to do to change your life, is change your mind". The words mean nothing to me at the moment. 

Anyway, that's it for now. Thanks for listening.  

[tyme]

Hi there @Fallen_Broken_ ,

I'm sorry to hear how challenging life has become for you. I hear that it has become so difficult to practice self care.

Your challenges are real and many here on the forums have been through similar challenges. Thank you for taking the time to share what's going on for you at this time.

Sometimes, I find setting simple goals helpful. We can also support each other to have some accountability where we set goals and celebrate achievements (big or small). @AuntGlow is working on a space to help with this.

Goals can include:

- getting out of bed

- washing your face

- brushing your hair

- eating a meal

From my own experiences, I've been in a dark place of depression for many years and really struggled to get out of bed, let alone the house. Setting small goals was definitely a start. It doesn't work ALL the time, but when it did, it helped.

What are things you've found you enjoy doing?

Please know we are here for you and hope to hear from you soon.

[Xena2]

I understand how you feel, Ive been there too. If you can do one thing for yourself get to a doctor or hospital and get help. I know it's so hard to do.

Depression is SUCH a weird thing, no one who hasn't experienced it could ever understand.

For me, medication helps. I'm on a bit of a downward slide right now so wondering if I need to increase my medication...maybe I should follow my own advice!

One step at a time.

Hugs to you.

[tyme]

Welcome @Xena2 , nice to see you.

@Xena2 @Fallen_Broken_ How are you both going today?

I'm hearing that life can give us lemons sometimes, and that's why we come together to share our experiences. Hopefully we can support each other through this.