I wanted to reassure anyone reading along, that I am ok.
I don't like to post 'complaining" stories. I understand that our thoughts are powerful.
But, I also need to vent.
I hope people can skip over any posts I write that made them feel sad. Honestly, the important thing is for me to get things out & not feel totally isolated.
I didn't sh or do anything unordinary last night. I stayed up until 3am painting.
I don't know anything about how to use watercolour. I bought water colour pens from A mazon.
I have noticed that, to make ink blend nicely, requires slow movement, unlike other mediums.
I think that is why I am liking it so much. It forces me to slow down.
I cannot make beautiful water colour drawings like professionals. I don't want to learn, techniques on you tube. I want to let myself create without knowing if I'm right or wrong.
I am ok, except I have lots of brain fog 🏧 . I feels yuck & not nice.
I found a way to do the cat litters using a roll of paper towels I found. I usually lay down newspaper before I put litter in. Paper towels works ok.
I have telehealth GP this afternoon.
The body, trauma, fear sensations make me sad. It makes me feel very disabled..
& I am. It is difficult to accept.
I have lots of brilliant attributes about me too❤️🦄
It means so much that you replied to me.
It certainly cannot be easy, reading sad story, after sad story.
All of you deserve huge medals & pay rises & whatever support is needed, for the selfless work you do.
You are saving peoples lives.
As are all of the long time members.
A person, on the other end. It means everything.
And I like the silly jokes that make me smile.
I don't even mind the poetry😙
Thankyou so much @tyme@TAB@StuF & everyone. I appreciate you all, so much.
I will add last night's painting - needs more, lacking. I get a knowing when they are finished.
