It's ok to cancel, hope you are not regretting it too much but there will be plenty of other opportunities.
It sounds like you cancelled because you thought the visit would be overwhelming or cause you anxiety? Are you still trying to get a feel for what you can handle right now?
Not sure how close to this person you are but just take baby steps and tell people gently what you need and how you want to be treated because most people care but just don't know what to do until you teach them!
If you're not sure what you can manage socially, start with someone you trust who will understand if you need to say, ok, this is all I can handle today, I need to go now. Warn them beforehand that you may only be able to manage half an hour or so and you may be a bit quiet and you'll probably be surprised with how much more understanding people are if they're forewarned and have had a chance to understand and prepare for those outcomes.
I am ok today, I've got my shit back in its box, my mask back on, and imma get through another day. That's what matters for me right now. Looking at a couple more weeks in here but it is a safe space and where I need to be.
Hi @LeChuck sorry to ask and ok if not wanting to answer ...are you still in the group programs? I hope ur ok, i think youre sounding very grounded to me. I know its hard. I put on a mask as well to appear "easy-going." With some success. Today i am being annoying and not easy again. Delicate cycle (there is a song with this name by Kimya Dawson).
Its ok to need to time. Its ok to take time to be in hospital. Its ok to not know. Its ok to change ur mind.
I am a bit sad about having to leave hosptial to be heard. They stuffed up my admission times, i had someone to drop me off there in the afternoon but said the dr needs you in the morning. Then the dr came in the afternoon anyway. This meant i had to go alone to the hospital unsupported.
They dont care about little things like this. They juet churn us in and out. So...whatever, we have to do what they say, but they broke me every day with little things like this.
No problem @EternalFlower , yep still in group therapy program every day. Pretty much compulsory here but they get it if you're distressed or not up to attending. It's good. Really learning a lot about myself, emotional regulation, and just navigating life with mental health problems.
I will go back to my weekly outpatient group once I get out of here, and I can't stress how much it helps me stay on track. Not sure how you go about finding a good one, mine is linked to my hospital. It's not for everyone, some people find hearing others problems too distressing, but it takes a lot to trigger me, I can leave whenever I need to then come back when I'm ready, and nobody cares if you cry the whole time. Everyone gets it. It works for me.
Sounds like you're in struggle town and feeling let down by your team and the system at the moment. Here if you want to talk more about that, I skipped therapy this arvo.
Learning your own self worth, how to set boundaries and enforce them, and having the confidence to know what you deserve and communicate that, and what's just not ok effectively takes time. But we are constantly building skills and learning things to put in our toolboxes and you're going to get there. The progress you've made just in the past few weeks is inspiring.
I am free all afternoon @EternalFlower so if you want to talk more about what's going on and maybe try and workshop a bit of a plan to tackle some of it I'm here, but no pressure at all. That might be the last thing you feel like doing! Sometimes we don't want input we just want someone to listen and shut up! I can do that too 😉 Anyway, I know it takes time to collect our thoughts and build ourselves up to post, and sometimes we just don't have it in us right now. Reach out any time you are ready and need to talk. No reply necessary lovely eternal, just wanted to offer support if/when you need it.
Hi @LeChuck i hear u, groups help mea lot too. I do them in public system when i can and sometimes make friends with the participants as well. I am glad uve got that.
Ive tried to get an appointment for tomorrow with the dr but was rejected....love that for me lol. I felt pretty annoying asking. They email him to see if he can fit me in but it wasnt possible. I needed like a discharge plan but atm am free falling.
