Trying makes it worse

[Zahlia]

Hi @EternalFlower 

Zahlia here, one of the mods on tonight. Reading your post I'm a little worried about you. You've taken some meds but aren't exactly sure what to do. You just feel so hopeless and helpless tonight.

Are you worried about your immediate safety? I would recommend reaching out for some medical advice or a crisis service just with the medication you took...

  

Unfortunately, the Forums aren’t a counselling or crisis service, however you can call any of the following services now for immediate support: 

  

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat 

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling 

If in immediate danger: 000 

I will also send you an email to check in privately

Zahlia 💛

[Jynx]

Aww @EternalFlower I am sorry that you are feeling so lost and like no one cares. That's an awful feeling. 

How are you going today hun? 

[EternalFlower]

Hi, I went to the public hospital today , and I am being discharged from their care in 3 months.

The psychiatrist was really scary in the discussion, raised his voice, etc. Have a history of DV and I felt physically uncomfortable with him in the room.

I am feeling like absolute shit.

@Zahlia @Jynx 

[Jynx]

Oh that's awful @EternalFlower I am so sorry you were treated that way. Grrr makes me cranky!

How are you travelling this arvo?? 

[EternalFlower]

Hi @Jynx @Appleblossom @Oaktree @Owlunar2 @Shaz51 @Zoe7 

hope all are well

have been sectioned this week, had a really hard week - it has been a horrible year with very limited supports.

Really exhausted by it all sadly

i hope life is good in your respective worlds 🙂 keep on keeping on x

[Appleblossom]

@EternalFlower Really good to hear from you, but saddened that you are experiencing the coercive side of the system.  Do what you need to do to get through. I hope there is some companionship from others, but it can also be challenging to have to get along with all sorts of people going through different crises in a live in basis.  The hope is that the staff set up a better situation for when you are discharged. Fingers crossed. Maybe there will be a good session run by a good therapist of some kind, and not just the cold clinical feel. I know some workers care. 

My situation is relatively stable at the moment, but heavy laden. So I am talking about choppy seas and silver  lining in the clouds. 

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